I know it can’t just be me.

I can’t be the only one who has days where I ask myself, Is this actually worth it? Does anyone read my blog? Is anyone listening? Am I making any kind of difference, or do I just look foolish for continuing to put my heart out there?

I see other people with huge followings. Their posts are filled with likes, comments, and shares. Meanwhile, I struggle to get one like. Heck, if I’m being honest, sometimes I’m the only person who likes my own post.

And on those days, doubt gets loud.

But eventually, I remind myself why I started.

I don’t write for algorithms. I don’t write for followers. I write for the victim who feels alone. I write for the younger version of me—the girl who desperately needed someone to tell her she wasn’t crazy, that healing was possible, and that her story didn’t have to end in brokenness.

Most days, that’s enough.

But if I’m being honest… not always.

Sometimes the world feels cruel. Sometimes comparison steals my joy. Sometimes I wonder if my words are disappearing into empty space.

And maybe that’s okay.

Maybe we’re supposed to have days like this. Maybe we need the hard days so we don’t confuse social media with reality. Because social media is a highlight reel. People post the victories, the milestones, the applause. They don’t always post the moments when they question everything.

Well, I am.

Today is one of those days.

I’m not writing this because I want sympathy. I’m writing it because I want whoever is reading this to know that I’m human too. I have bad days. I question myself. I get discouraged.

But tomorrow, I’ll probably write again.

Because if one person reads these words and feels a little less alone… then maybe it was worth it all along.

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Hi Chrissie 🙂

I see you + what you’re doing … and I definitely feel most of what you do is impactful. You are writing your thoughts and feelings … and sometimes you feel as if they are vanishing into a “void” (cf. socio.business.blog/2024/09/20/voiding-and-avoiding-the-void ).

Yet you are also actively yourself putting your work into such lost and deserted emptiness. body-chaos.com is now basically nothing — it simply redirects to survivor-space.com (the big G interprets this as “body-chaos is completely wiped out” — personally IDGAF about what the big G thinks, interprets, etc. but there are a lot of people on Earth who consider it to be the Pope of the Internet [cf. socio.business.blog/2023/10/09/if-google-is-the-pope-of-the-internet-then-who-are-you-i ] ).

I have tried to support your work and also help you to carry your “impact forward”. But you seem to ignore my offers for help. I have written comments on your blogs that remain unpublished (a while back I actually had a website where I would publish my own comments together with copies of the posts I was responding to; that blog still exists, but I haven’t posted there in a while because there simply isn’t much of an audience for it).

Recently, I have been thinking a lot about the notion of “resentment”. Today, it is usually view as an unambiguously negative sentiment. AFAIK, in the original French usage of the term, it wasn’t limited in this negative manner — insofar as apparently a long time ago, one could also have “positive” feelings towards someone else’s behavior (toward one-self). But today I feel it is also unambiguously interpreted negatively for a different reason: today the interpretation is (I feel) that it is a sign of weakness for someone to feel negatively (or indeed anything) in response to someone else’s behavior (at all). The reasoning is, I feel, that there is a movement to promote the idea that people ought to be independent and unaffected by other people in a very general manner.

I am still playing around with such ideas, but I wanted to share them with you (and your audience) here and now because I hope to raise awareness for such issues. In this sense, it’s not your words or my words that matter, but it is our engagement and communication and shared language and words that matter.

(IMHO)

🙂 Norbert

“Starling. Excitation and resentment” by AzIbiss is licensed under CC BY-NC 2.0.

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