[anamariacherciu.art.blog] “L O V E making”

MOAP represented a search for the self, L O V E making embodies the exploration of that ‘found self’.

Being affected by several mental health problems from a young age, I have been continuously chasing a cure. I have been desperately seeking for the tools that could at least alleviate the suffering, especially during the recent years of my life.

Sometimes when the dreadful chaos would quiet down I would begin to notice that I am not alone. There are other souls silently screaming and crying. Observing this aspect is rather sad than comforting.

Succeeding various methods of really suppressing the problem rather than holistically treating it, I ultimately found love. This might sound plain or appear to be a far too simple answer, but truly it is this simple. The complexity however, lays within the layers of love, the depths that can be reached through it. 

Let me ask you a question. When was the last time you took yourself on a date? Offer love to yourself. Do not resist it. There is no need to. Stop running. Turn around and look at your Self. Embrace it. Accept it. Approve it. Strip-off and just be. All that is happening is happening within you. You are the one you are living with for the greatest part during this life. Build a conscious relationship with yourself. Let go of being alienated and estranged from yourself and welcome yourself.

L O V E making embodies a personal project focused on inspiring its audience to consider the emotion of love. The aim is to spark the interest in whoever might connect with the project to reflect on the idea of love. The objective is to make the audience feel.

The intent is situated far from the action of trapping the concept of love within words by attaching any labels to it. Love is subjective to every human being populating this great planet. Rather than providing a rigid, limited portrait of what love could mean, the focus is placed on the feeling.

The aim is attained by the fabrication of a collection / series of digitally manipulated self-portrait photographs. Additionally, the gentle colour palette weaving the aesthetic of the project alongside the shapes and the forms introduced also represent key elements supporting the intent. ( Note To Self: to be revised after the final outcome is produced )

L O V E making represents a form of transmission for the emotion of love. Transcending any social constructs such as gender, this project communicates to every individual who resonates with it. 

In the WP “backend” interface, you can add more detailed information about category names — IMHO this may be very helpful, because names like “FMP” and “LM” seem quite cryptic.

You might be able to find better tutorials @ wordpress.tv but the basic ideo (IMHO) would be to add a description to the catagory data — I think this would also be shown whenever someone clicks on a category link.

Let me know (either via reply, via email or whatever) if you want / appreciate more help. 🙂


[2020-04-28 14:18 UTC]


#alleviate, #alleviation, #art, #chaos, #emotion, #emotional, #emotions, #love, #mental-health, #photography, #self, #self-portrait, #suffer, #suffering

[shemeansbold.wordpress.com] “RANDOM FACTS ABOUT ME!”

I have always thought that I connect with people who let me into their lives, not entirely but if I know certain things about them, I like them better. So here are 20 random facts about me which you can be interested in.

  1. I am born and brought up in Mumbai, India- I’m 17, I have amazing parents and an elder brother. My dad is a surgeon, my mom is a nutritionist and my brother is currently pursuing MBBS.
  2. I am a South Indian- my dad’s a Tulu and my mom is Konkani, however, I can speak neither. Hindi and English are my sweet spots. A little weak marathi too.
  3. I am a huge Bollywood fan- I have grown up watching Anjali-Rahul and ofc Poo.
  4. Never trouble me while watching cricket – ofc it started with a huge crush on Virat Kohli (posters, newspaper cuttings, photos, etc) and I started loving the sport.
  5. I am scared of all animals and have never liked dogs– you can judge me all you want but dont get a dog in front of me, I will jump out of the window.
  6. As every kid I also wanted to be a doctor till 5th std, but “mujhse zyaada padhai wadhai nahi hoti”- that’s why I took arts. just kidding.
  7. Have not been to a concert – I wanted to go for JB’s concert but ‘Ammi nahi maani’ thank god. we all know how it went.
  8. I am shit scared of theme park rides.
  9. I like baking, I have done a photography course and I have also learnt classical dance, hip hop, etc.- I will get a Job somewhere.
  10. I know people are going to judge me but I absolutely love watching tiktoks, I can spend hours doing that. I tiktok and chill.
  11. My life mantra is WWBWD- what will Blair Waldorf do? I absofuckingutely love her.
  12. Again everyones gonna judge me but- I am a huge Bigg boss fan, I defend people, I shout at my family for talking in between. fun fact- we spent my birthday at home coz bb finale.
  13. “Who cannot fall in love with New York City”- I have never been to NYC, but that’s my dream destination and yes I’m planning to visit it soon.
  14. My zodiac sign is Aquarius and I do try to find who my ‘soulmate’ is gonna be. I dont remember but I do try to find out hehe.
  15. I am a water baby. I love water rides, swimming and I plan to do snorkelling or underwater diving very soon.
  16. I can spend hours watching James Charles tutorials because I love makeup.
  17. I am a sucker for stationery- they say diamonds are a girls best friend, for me its pens, diaries, highlighters, sticky notes omg.
  18. I am not a foodie but I love crispy chicken burgers. Also, I cannot tolerate spicy food. I just can’t-
  19. I am completely a coffee person. never really tried tea except for green tea.
  20. I hate– heat (totally a winter person), being left on seen/like and wrong grammar.

This is just really random facts, I hope you guys can connect with me through this and those who knew these 20 facts about me, drop a comment. also those who relate to me, leave one too. I will try to be regular as possible but do follow me on Instagram. Thank you if you read this far and I hope I didn’t disappoint.

Hi Su 🙂

Is Suhaani your “correct” name — it’s beautiful, are you afraid people will misspell it (I almost did 😉 ).

Why is writing your “escape”? (as it says in your “tagline”?)

🙂 Norbert


[2020-04-26 14:14 UTC]

#about, #about-me, #connect, #escape, #escaping, #fact, #facts, #life, #like, #people, #random, #tagline, #write, #writing

[tiger-pops.com] “The Awkward Intro”

I guess I am kind of hoping one random person reads this, so it doesn’t feel like shouting in an empty room; but doesn’t feel like speaking to an actual person

So I am not sure I could say exactly what this blog is about or who it is intended for.

I would say it is for people who are constantly struggling with who they are, who they want to be, how they wish to be seen etc.

I am a nearly 30 year old woman who has had a life that could be viewed in many ways. As my therapist recently said, ‘you are someone who is very skilled at controlling the narrative of how you are viewed’; what a skill right!? This is my way of just being me without knowing the audience or having any expectations of how i wish to be viewed by them (you).

My hope from this is to put my thoughts to (digital) paper, and get them out of my mind, and to help prepare myself for essay writing for when i start a degree this year (yay me).

If you have any interest in any of the following, then my blog may interest you:

  • Animals
  • Family
  • Relationships
  • Sci-fi
  • Fantasy
  • Make-up
  • Fashion
  • Mental Health
  • Walking
  • Nature
  • Drinking
  • Change
  • Science
  • Emotional confusion 

I am hoping by doing this I may connect with other humans who understand me, or at least find another good/interesting human being who wants to expand the human experience by learning from each other, with the added bonus of not actually having to meet or get out of PJs.

This will be heavily edited before posting so here goes…

I just watched the Taylor Swift documentary. Could i be anymore more of a basic white girl!? I swear I just grew a pair of ugg boots whilst watch, and a pumpkin latte materialised in my hand. But truly, I was stuck up about music for a long time, and accidentally listened to an acoustic cover of ‘mean’ and loved the lyrics so much i had to know who wrote it, my pretentious little heart dropped when i realised Taylor Swift wrote a song that i connected with on such a deep level. Was it a pop song, that was enjoyable to listen to? Yes. Did it very clearly sum up how it felt to have an abusive, controlling ex at a young age? YES! A pop beat that summed up an abusive relationship at the age of 15 (!?) wow, i didn’t have to feel sad listening to it, i could bop along the street, feeling strong, feeling understood, feeling like i wasn’t the only person in the world who had been so stupid. Love her or hate her, there is no denying that Taylor Swift is one of the most successful artists of our day (if not ever), and I felt like, ‘Hey, if she can be that stupid, as to let an idiot man, who didn’t deserve her, get the better of her; then maybe i am not a weak human, maybe i am just a human’. It has taken me a long time, and, unfortunately, another abusive relationship to realise some of my issues.

And I do feel the need (due to my own ego issues) that whilst I totally adore Tay Tay; normally my favourites are: Leonard Cohen, Prince, Rolling Stones, The Beatles and Dolly Parton. None of this is to ‘make up’ for like TS but just to give you a bigger view of me and my love of artist, that now i look at the list, are all song writers. Wow I just identified an importance whilst writing.

I would love to hear from any one, even if they just want to laugh at the pointlessness of my blog. Or the utterly terrible grammar (new chrome back, serious first world problems, it has a weird keyboard). At the same time I am going to carry on posting as shouting in the dark in this manner is making me feel a lot better than internalising everything and damaging myself.

Thank you for either reading or not, thanks for being a person. I can guarantee you are a great person; or at the very least, weird, and that is brilliant.

I’ll be your “one person” 🙂

Very random… and that’s excellent! 😀

Some taggng tips: use words, not longstringslikethis, and use stuff you actually WANT to share with other people (not sure “bad grammar” qualifies 😉 ).

Want more tips? Just ask and / or send me an email. ❤


[2020-04-22 07:57 UTC]

#essay, #essays, #interest, #interested, #interests, #narrative, #skill, #skilled, #skills, #tag, #tagging, #tags, #write, #writing

[manifoldwisdom.com] “Why is God so particular about us loving Him? — A Scientific Inquiry”

“Teacher, which is the greatest commandment in the Law?”
Jesus replied: “‘Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.’ This is the first and greatest commandment. And the second is like it: ‘Love your neighbor as yourself.’ All the Law and the Prophets hang on these two commandments.”
— Matthew 22:36-40, NIV.

In the movie Interstellar, when Cooper entered the Tesseract, he was able to see the entirety of time from the beginning to the end, all at once. In it, he struggled to find a method of communication to communicate with his daughter, Murph. However, being trapped in a specific frame of space in Murph’s bedroom’s bookshelf, he found absolutely no way to communicate with her other than to tweak that fabric of space by shifting the second’s needle on Murph’s watch — the watch that he left with her before leaving for space.

God sees time in a way that is vastly different from us. He does not experience time in a linear manner the way we experience time. Rather, to Him, all times happen all the time. And for that matter, “all time is affecting all time, all the time”. That was what Cooper experienced in the Tesseract in the movie Interstellar. In the Tesseract, he was able to watch everything in Murph’s bedroom, from the beginning of the universe till the end of time. He was able to go back and forth and create subtle changes in the fabric of space to communicate to Murph. However, no matter how hard he tried, he was unable to communicate in a way that was understandable to her. To her, he was but a ghost in the bedroom.

In the same way, God is in a dimension that is completely different from ours. In a previous post, I wrote that God appears in two forms — 1) a physical appearance (in the form of Christ) and 2) in the form of a transcendent conscious entity. Let’s not look at Christ for the moment and zoom into the transcendent conscious entity. God experiences all times all at once. Because of that, everything happens in a sort of causality loop where what happens in the future affects what happens in the past, and vice versa.

Unlike Him, we experience time in a linear manner. We call this the arrow of time. We are trapped by the very notion of time, unable to advance faster than it nor are we able to go backwards, against it. We can however, transcend it by recording snippets of memories through different means (ie: books, journals, photographs, videos, audio recording, etc). We are able to relive the past even though we have advanced through time. We call this atemporality. We transcend time to experience something that happened in another time frame. Through atemporal access to incidences in other timeframes, we also experience emotions associated with it.

Atemporality does not only apply to past memories. Atemporality may also apply to future events. Say for example, a prophecy of a future disaster can invoke fear and hence, cause us to make necessary arrangements to tide through the perceived disaster. In the Old Testament, the prophecy of a coming Messiah will invoke reverence, awe, and hope for the people of Israel. Hence, it kept the Israelites focused on God and on the hope of a coming “kingdom”. In other words, emotions is the one thing that transcends spatial dimensions of space and time. This was why Paul wrote, “for now we see only a reflection as in a mirror; then we shall see face to face. Now I know in part; then I shall know fully, even as I am fully known. And now these three remain: faith, hope and love. But the greatest of these is love” (1 Corinthians 13:12-13, NIV). It was his faith that connected with God. It was the hope he placed in the knowledge of a future promise of God that got him to continue doing what he was doing. It was his love of God and his love for God that held his entire being together.

We wouldn’t have memories or hope of an incident or someone if we have not taken into heart what it meant to us. The sacrifice of Christ would mean nothing to us if we have not experienced the immense love that comes alongside it. This was why Murph was compelled to return to the watch that Cooper gave her. It was an artefact of Cooper’s love for her. It was something that helps her connect with Cooper.

Now, we can never be able to experience something if we do not know about it. Murph will not be able to love Cooper in such a profound way if not for her experience of his love towards her. No one can experience the magnitude of love unless they are aware of that such a love exist. Hence, it is the job of the Christian to share the love of God in a way we experienced. In Paul’s words, “How, then, can they call on the one they have not believed in? And how can they believe in the one of whom they have not heard? And how can they hear without someone preaching to them? And how can anyone preach unless they are sent? As it is written: ‘How beautiful are the feet of those who bring good news!’” (Romans 10:14-15, NIV).

The question therefore, is whether or not have we experienced God in a deep way that allows us to communicate with Him regardless of situation? Have we experienced Him talking to us? Him shaping our lives? Him journeying with us? Him revealing Himself to us? Have we meditated on what the sacrifice of Christ on the cross meant to us? Have we meditated on what He did at the last supper? Do we “do these in remembrance of Me” (Mark 14:22-25, Luke 22:18-20, 1 Corinthians 11:23-25)?

No matter how much God loves us, if we do not reciprocate our love towards Him, we will not be able to receive His message, let alone communicate with Him.

No matter how much God loves us, if we do not reciprocate our love towards Him, we will not be able to receive His message, let alone communicate with Him. However, it is only through our love for God that gives God the confidence to communicate in a way that will be able reach us. Hence, on our part, we are to wait upon Him to speak to us through the actions He had done on earth, through the words He had written down for us in scriptures, and through the daily meditation of His words. When we are sensitive to what He is doing in our lives, when His promises speaks to us at our lowest point in life, when the Holy Spirit shows Himself and journey with us through our darkest times, we are to savour the moment and form a holographic memory of all that happened. Savour the moment; all the words that was said, all the things that happened, all the peace that was felt, all the people that you met, all the details that you experience.

Having stored these memories in your head, we are to return to them, just as how Christ called His disciples to return to Jerusalem after His ascension. Return to the place where the Saviour was pierced. Return to the place where it hurts the most. Return to the place where the Saviour meets you. Return to the place where you journeyed with the Saviour. There, at the lowest point of your encounter, the Saviour will overwhelm you by causing His power to descend upon you. There, at your deepest meditation, the Saviour will shake the very fabric of spatial dimension and communicate with you. There, at your lowest, the Saviour will show His love to you.

What does the word “science” mean to you? (in particular here?) What does it take for something to qualify as “scientific”?


[2020-04-21 10:17 UTC]

#god, #inquire, #inquiry, #love, #loving, #particular, #qualification, #qualifications, #qualify, #qualitative, #quality, #science, #scientific, #scientific-method

[lavitazoe.wordpress.com/] “Online Identity”

Social media and the affects it has on the way we look at our bodies and at ourselves in general is such a discussed topic, but one that although some progress is being made towards self-love and authenticity, it is a topic with possibly no correct solution or answer.
I joined both Instagram and Twitter as a teenage girl. Twitter I joined to connect with celebrities that usually were out of reach, so this was exciting. Instagram on the other hand was to share photos of what was going on in my life and to be able to see what was going on in others. I believe that when I began using Instagram, I was naïve to the effects it was going to have on not only my mental health but also on my friends. I didn’t think there was much wrong with being flooded with photos of women with perfect bodies, endorsing weight loss products. Photos of women with airbrushed skin and perfect hair advertising skin care and vitamins. Reflecting back on my time now I can see just how damaging these sort of posts were for a teenager to take in. Growing into my adult years I was finding my voice, searching for who I was online and trying to feel comfortable in my own skin. Years of scrolling through feeds of Instagram each day with photoshopped perfection had creeped into the back of my mind and planted itself there. A statement that resonates with this feeling is “Users find online environments potent sites for constructing and trying out versions of self” (Smith & Watson 2014, p.75). I always thought of myself as a very authentic person, I always tried to find courage to speak my mind and be honest about how I felt. I found this difficult to convey on Instagram. I felt pressured for my photos to be perfect. I wanted to share things I loved but I felt judged. I wanted to be beautiful and interesting like the posts that I seen every day. I knew there was an issue with this. I could feel that the fact I would spend time not being in a moment because I was worried about how a photo being taken would look. Or I would be running late because I was taking a selfie to post onto Instagram because that would make me feel attractive. I would discuss these sort of things with my friends. Query if they ever felt that all the photoshop and advertising was detrimental on our mental health. My friends would tell me how they would feel ugly going on Instagram, that they felt their bodies needed plastic surgery to look like the women they seen online. They would tell me how sometimes it causes them to have anxiety for days. We all knew Instagram was causing these feelings, but we would continue to use it. Continue to follow the people that made us feel less of ourselves. It was an addiction. One of many studies that have been completed showed that exposure to celebrity and peer images increased negative mood and body dissatisfaction (Brown, Tiggemann 2016, p 37-43). Recently I had decided that I had enough, I hated how I felt going onto Instagram. I hated feeling lost online and not being sure of who I am, and I deleted my account. I took a break for weeks to reset the way my mind thought about social media. I began using my Twitter account again. I made a conscious effort to tweet about things I enjoyed and wanted to share. I tweeted my opinion on matters happening in the world rather than worrying about liking someone’s photo. I started to reconnect with people in a more human way. I find that tweeting about such simple moments such as the ones below can connect you with others in such an authentic way.


I did return to Instagram recently after my short break. Going back onto this social media site I thought deeply about the way it had affected me and how I knew it affected others. I ensure that I make an effort to be, as I have in bio, fearlessly authentic.

Screenshot from my personal Instagram https://www.instagram.com/zoetscott/
Screenshot from my personal Instagram https://www.instagram.com/zoetscott/

I now ensure I unfollow any accounts that may have any effect on my mental health or that I believe are conveying a message that can be harmful to others as well. I try to consciously share real moments and images that make me happy and disregard the need to have likes to validate these images or myself. I feel better within myself doing this and I hope that I, along with others that believe in this message, social media can become more authentic, supportive and enjoyable for all people young and old to enjoy without feeling less of themselves. Lets use social media to build each other up!

References List
Smith, S & Watson, J 2014, ‘Virtually Me: A Toolbox about Online Self Presentation,’ in Poletti, A and Rak, J (eds.) Identity Technologies: Constructing the Self Online, The University of Wisconsin Press, Madison, pp.75.

Brown, Z & Tiggemann M, ‘Attractive celebrity and peer images on Instagram: Effect on women’s mood and body image’, Body Image, Vol.19, pp 37-43, https://doi.org/10.1016/j.bodyim.2016.08.007

Excellent — I think we pretty much agree. 🙂 The way I see it, pretty much the entire online universe = “social media” (even the way you define it)… you see, when we use a browser (or similar app), we navigate to online destinations (URLs — like lavitazoe.wordpress.com 😉 ) and the site “recognizes” that we have asked for information (and normally the site also delivers it — many newspapers in the USA now actually deliver responses that say “sorry, we’re not going to show people in Europe anything because due to GDPR, we won’t show you the news [what they’re actually saying thru the flowers is: we can’t spy on you in order to deliver tailored ads / news / whatever] ). LOL, I guess you weren’t expecting to have such a discussion, right? Well, in any case: most of the examples you mention are brand names (twitter was originally a word, IDK if they were able to turn it into a protected trademark or not; facebook used to be a slang term [for student directory] on college campuses, but that is almost definitely trademarked now). I refer to such sites as “retard media”, becuse they’re based on outdated media / technology. You might be able to find my definition of it if you search for it in conjunction with define or definition — you might have even more luck if you visit remediary.com and search there! Or, I could add a link here, if you want 😉


[2020-04-21 14:29 UTC]

#brand, #facebook, #gdpr, #identity, #image, #online-identity, #persona, #platform, #platforms, #privacy, #retard-media, #self, #social-media, #twitter